Hiiii everybody! How’s it going??
As you may have noticed, I’ve started posting my cooking videos on Thursdays instead of Wednesdays. Why? Life got a little too crazy. In a good way, I suppose? Let me explain:
My main jam right now is graduate school; while I take this YouTube thing pretty seriously, I’m a full-time student and that’s my top priority.. in theory. I had these grand plans to balance YouTube so that it doesn’t interfere with school, but I’m definitely still finding my footing. That’s an understatement. I am a mess, hah. For example, in this episode, I injure myself with a knife:
Okay, but really.. life’s been pretty swell lately…
..but, all of this is very distracting from my studies. Especially since I have 6 hours of classes on both Wednesday and Thursday nights. So you can imagine how ballistic it was trying to get my videos and blogs posted on Wednesdays. It’s tough to admit — with all of this going on, I got pretty out of control. Like it was just another Manic Monday.. every day. I was bouncing around haphazardly from happy moment to exciting event. I was having a lot of fun, but it started to become a problem and cramped my productivity. Nooo!
Thankfully, I had this realization that the good times can impact my life just as severely as the bad times. In both cases, seemingly uncontrollable feelings are strong driving forces. When things are nearing rock bottom, you feel controlled by pain – you want to escape it and get rid of it. It keeps you down.
When things are going well, you’re driven by pleasure; it feels good to be happy, but I’ve also heard that “even sunshine burns when you get too much.” There’s a fine line between living life to the fullest and exhausting yourself.
I’ve already seen that it’s possible to pull yourself up out of dark places when you’re feeling down. At the same time, I’m trying to find my balance and learn to live my life to the limit without burning out and letting my passion fuel into an uncontrollable fire. Okay that’s a little dramatic, but I know that when you have a lot of people relying on you, being exhausted and unable to get things done hurts those around you as well. And that’s just not healthy.
Being in my mid-20s, I’m learning that nourishing and exercising your emotions is important too. Just like you have a an idea of foods that are good for you (Veggies! Fruits! Whole Grains!), and foods that are bad for you (fried food, hot Cheetos, Taco Bell, lol), you start to learn which emotions are healthy to consume and entertain.
For example, it can be gratifying to stay angry and hold grudges, but we know that’s not good for us. It can also be great to give into our wants and desires, choosing what feels good at the moment instead of making progress on your goals.
It’s basically like those days when I am tempted to get a Crunch Wrap Supreme from Taco Bell drive-thru and eat it alone in my car. It will feel great for about 10 minutes, then I know my body will react adversely later on (and that’s putting it politely, lol!).
I’ve talked to some close friends about some of my struggles to focus. The one thing that’s helped me to get a handle on emotions is to focus on purpose, whether it’s the big picture of your hopes and aspirations, or reflecting on the reason why these things are happening to you. What are you learning from the situation? What do these feelings say about your motivation or hope in your life?
Finally, life often throws you quite the basket(case) of ingredients.. like a crazy episode of Chopped or something. You can either freak out and give up, or make something delicious! And if your life gets crazy busy too, I got you. Here’s an easy one:
Recipe: Zesty Chicken Burrito
– 1/2 rotisserie chicken
– 6 tortillas (I used whole wheat. You know how I do)
– 2 medium tomatoes
– 1 avoCAdo
– 1/4 cup cilantro
– 1/3 cup sour cream
– 2 tbsp taco seasoning** (no MSG, please!)
**make your own!
– 1.5 tbsp cumin
– 1 tsp garlic powder
– ½ tsp salt
– freshly ground black pepper
– Tapatio or Cholula hot sauce
1. Chop stuff!
– Take leftover Rotisserie chicken (or new chicken) and shred into bite-sized pieces
– Chop tomatoes & avocados into small cubes. Don’t cut yourself like I did, hah.
– Coarsely chop cilantro and add it to a bowl with the other veggies
2. Make Sauce!
– Mix together sour cream, taco seasoning, and hot sauce. Donesies!
– Place chicken and veggie mix in center of warmed tortilla
– Add cheese if you please (bonus points if you warm the cheese with the tortilla for melty fun
– Wrap it up and enjoy!
Let me know if you made it! This will help me with my emotions, hah. Luv ya’ll!! @diningattiffs #diningattiffs!
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